i didn’t go to bed like i said i was going to. i forgot the season premire of Castle was on after Dancing With The Stars. i feel like i need another shower too so at 11, i’ll take a shower then go to bed. deal?
okay, tell me if this is a common situation for other girls..so there’s two guys. one that is a year younger then me, i’ve been talking to him since april i think, i’ve hung out with him a lot, we flirt a lot with eachother, he’s a sweet talker especially through texting, but then he will go like three days without texting me until he sees me again then it’s like the ‘spark’ came back. but i can be myself around him and he is pretty cute. but he’s had a hard life and doesn’t have the best enviroment at home. he’s isn’t the most innocent of all guys, but he does make me feel special. but he can be a big player and a huge flirt to others. but we almost started dating two months ago but there were a lot of conflictions. he goes to my church but a lot of my friends at church (girls and guys) tell me to stay away from him..he’s not very liked at church either. i get so extremely jealous of every girl he flirts with though and i’m not sure why.. but there’s something there..idk if it’s because i feel bad for him because of everythings he’s been through or if it’s the way he looks at me and his hugs are the best.
then there’s guy number two. he is two years older then me. he is seriously the kindest, friendliest, and funniest guy i’ve ever met. not only that, but he is so so so cute, and extremely italian. he’s really tall and tan and has that really hot scruff :) ive also been talking to him since april. he’s also my neighbor. we have talked one on one so many times and we have so much in common, he’s like me but in cute guy form, hah. everyone loves him at church and almost every girl from church has crushed on him sometime in their life. here’s the thing with him..were so close, like brother/sisterish that i would be so scared that it would ruin our awesome friendship we have now. theres so many signs and i’ve heard so many rumors about him liking me and what not. but he doesn’t flirt with any other girls, and doesn’t flirt with me..well he kind of does but he doesnt really show those typeof feelings..see, he’s never had a girlfriend, or hasn’t even been close because he never wanted one (believe me, he could get one in a second!) which makes me wonder why he would ever want to date me because im nothing special but the little hints he gives and his friends say…i’m no dummy and i know theres something there. but im absolutely terrified for to say anything about it.
those two guys seriously take up a lot of my thinking time in my mind. the bad player guy that i would probably get yelled at by multiple people if we ever went out. or the good really cute guy that everyone has said us two would be a match in heaven.
..sounds like an easy choice right? guy number 2, hellllooo! but it’s not that easy for me at all. i cant decide..their both soooo different and i have a different relationship with both of them. ITS SO HARD!
kay, just had to vent :)
